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Thursday, May 31, 2007,6:31 AM
It's 6.30am in the morning, juz gt home from MOS...beri beri depressed n sad abt myself..eva since tt incident, i been behaving odd..30/05/07 was a unlucky n bad day for mi...Got reprimanded by lph, boss and sch. Firstly, boss say tt my working performance has drop n tis is beri bad for my future as well as for company, being call into office n 'nag' by him for almost 1 hr..secondl, it was lph having a personal chat wif mi, he say tt i m not doing my coaching well..he mention tt he noes i hv met up sum personal probs recently n told mi nt to let it affect my coaching performance as well as my studies, although i knob my head but in my heart i m really at a loss! till now i still in the mist of finding my own direction n lead on in life..nth could hide from his eyes, i could oniz assure him tt i do my best..Thirdly, being call by my lecturers in sch, he mention tt my result has show a drop n ask my y m i always in a daze during lessons..i wish i could tell him but i knew there nth he could do but the same old advise tt every1 gif mi...My life now is totally in a mess! everything juz went wrong...everyday i oniz noe tt i miss her beri much, i wan to hear her gentle voice, c her smiley face (even from afar will do)...So fed up tt i went MOS to let my emo out but i was wrong coz when the party is over, everyting juz went back to normal..i begin unable to recognise myself..sooner i guess i juz let my soul flow away living like a living dead person.. =...( it really hurts! i miss u so much!
Tuesday, May 29, 2007,8:20 PM
Juz another day pass, my heart is still missing her..wtd to to c her badly but i noe i cant, she not ready to face mi..if she ready, she will let mi noe..i'm still waiting! life is simply dull n meaningless after she left mi tt moment..i tink alot, cry alot, hurt alot all by myself! ppl say i dumb, ppl say she hv a change of heart but in my heart i still chose to believe her..i have a beri strong belief she nv cheated on mi n i willing to let my heart devoted juz for her..i still cherish n holding on tight the memories we used to share.. =..(
,12:59 AM
It's 1am rite now, juz gt home after ktv session wif frens after sch n work..been keeping myself busy so tt i wont go tink so much but actually i was cheating myself only..she always on my mind no matter where i go. Places tt we go, tings tt we do n etc..how? how could i live my days ahead? moody n emo were the words to describe my feeling everyday..common tests is ard the corner, i simply cant concentrate to pick up my notes n start revision, guess i might do badly tis sem but i really dun care much, lost hopes n confident within mi..i noe tis is not the correct way to behave but i really duno how to pick myself up as i really fall n hurt badly tis time.. I love her! i really really do... =..(
Sunday, May 27, 2007,10:58 AM
I always believe 'when there is a will, there is a way'.. but now i finally realise tt it wasnt an easy way out afterall..maybe times will tell everyting! Juz live each day by each day..no more goals nor targets to achieve, life is simply black n white now..how i wish i had i concusion n lose my memories!! regardless my eyes shut or open, she everywhere in my mind! gosh! deities, pls tell mi wad could i do?? =..(
,1:49 AM
Totally Hurts, shattered, complicated and depressed! A dream tt turn into nitemares where lies are everywhere..what is true n what is untrue can no longer be differentiate...
Friday, May 25, 2007,8:38 PM
In sch rite now..idealess wad to do next? full of ???...i was being ignore after sending out numerous sms to her..nvm, perhaps she is really confuse or mixed feeling like i do, juz wish she able to sort out her tots coz everyting will remain the same n be fine...i not gg to hide my feeling for her, there is nth to be ashamed of coz she really a great ger in my mind..even though being as her fren, i tink i could be satisfied as long as she lurve mi in ur heart..tt the least i ask for at the present state...i noe time will able to tell everyting n gods surely not gg to abandon mi leaving mi wif out her..one day, we will live happily eva after, a dream tt i pursue now n future! Bet she the ist n last ger tt i doing so much for her...n to be true n frank to myself, i really enjoy it! the more she smile, the merrier i am...the more she stress or sad...the deeper my heartbreak grow! Few days ago, came across tis interesting magazine at JE library n there 1 section saying tt 'when a guy cry, he is definately n truly worth to be wif in life'..n i tink it quite true coz the article simply tok exactly how m i feeling all the while...gonna to stop here coz library closing le, walking aimlessly out of the library not knowing wad is my next destination?? wish mi luck bah....
LuRvE ShAn
,12:22 AM
At tis point of time, i dun really understand whether i m sad or happy? totally mixed up!! Tis morning i was so eagar to await for dawn to break..woke up once at 6plus, too early so went back to slp till 7plus n wake up getting dress up quickly, sped off the mit up her to send her for her semi n final at ite bb =) ..it was great as i received the ist sms from her call mi 'dear dear' it was so sweet n melt my heart instantly..how i wish everyday she could call mi tt!! reaches there abt 9plus den watch ist game btw ite college west vs central b4 watching her match..poor dardar after her semi, she was like twisted her ankle =(, i was lyk observing her all the while so offer to gif her ride back home or buy her lunch so tt she nid not walk...she decline initially! =( due to fmps trg in the noon, i cant stay to watch her final but gif her my support n encouragement tt she will be champion! So i went off for coaching den to sch for my project presentation..halfway thru, she sms mi asking can i fetch her back hm to change? of coz cn as it my pleasure to be able to do sumting for the gal i lurve so much..wifout hesitation, i drove off to jp to pick her up n wait for her to change den send her to jw sport hall for my game as well as her scorer..Bad game today, we lost to pioneer csc..i was so depressed! feel lyk not putting in enuff effort to play my best..so after the match i run off to hide 1 corner to cool myself down..during the moments, alot of tings flash thru my mind, all the sad n happy memories btw mi n her all came back..i secretly cry but quicklu wipe off my tears as my frens came to console mi..how i wish tt moment she was the 1 beside mi? oniz she possess the ability to provide mi strength n will power to move on in life...she was completly my everyting! Quite delighted upon receiving her sms asking mi nt 2 be sad but i wish i could tell her my sadness is nth if u cld open up ur heart n return to my side...i dun mind losing everyting in life but definately not YOU...can u promise mi be it life or death, stay n stand by mi? i really cant do wif out u...i lurve u so much! =..(
LuRvE sHaN!
Thursday, May 24, 2007,12:56 AM
Late blogging 2nite! Beri happy today, it has been a wonderful day eva since 2 may 07 le...let skip the part abt my daily routine n go straight to the point lah..today went to ite simei pick her up coz ytd nite she told she feeling terrible n tis make mi worry the whole nite n day =( cant wait to c her so tt i noe whether she getting betta anot? so reach there ard 4plus den drove off to imm as she mention she has the crave to eat long john sliver so without further delay, we head toward there n i help her order combo 1 which she lyk..she eat the chicken while smiling away, so cute! i help her to eat sum of the french fried coz dun wan her to get sick again le...after tt went off to buy her sotong ball at old chang kee but b4 tt we went in fila boutique...she told mi tt she like the red bag alot n decide to buy it when she get her pay next mth..upon hearing tt, my heart suddenly feel like buy it straight away for her as a way to show my lurve n dote her...force her to try on n it look really nice on her..ok lah! i ask the salesguy cn get mi a new one n pay $69.90 for it..she was like so happy n smile all the way! yah, tt the way my baby...tt wad i wan to c everyday from u..as long as u happy, anyting to mi oso fine de! sent her off the sqs for u19 trg, den i went to np for lesson till 9 den went back sqs to pick her up for supper..she so notti loh...juz recover from her sickness yet wan to eat bbq chicky wing..haiz! wad to do? whu ask mi to lurve her so much leh...allow her to eat 1 loh, AGAIN she smile happily le...wah! i was lyk so happy seeing her happy loh...juz cant stop doting n lurving her for a minute! yeah! tml is her ite final...gonna to cheer for her! it was also my showdown for top 8 in the evening against pioneer csc..alrite! jiayou bah, shunliang!
LuRvE sHaN!
Wednesday, May 23, 2007,12:17 AM
2day was quite happy coz i get to c her twice..I drag yq along wif mi buying her favourite tutu kueh and bbt n went down to BB ite to watch her play matches..becoz pw was there so i had no choice to get near her so get yq to be the messenger n pass her the food..she told yq it was nice n tasty, i hear le feel so great n happy. As she play n i watch, i was so worry abt her hand as she hurt it le...luckily all the balls was like not tt fast coz their standard is low so afterall not so bad..wtd to fetch her to jw sport hall as she hv scorer in the evening but AGAIN becoz pw is ard, so we cant get near each other...so sad! =( so i sent yq back hm den i went bk hm for dinner n bath b4 gg down to watch J.central vs nee soon central games..j.central won 2-1 n is in semi le. now left my team to challenge against pioneer csc on tis cuming thurs for semi liao..saw her again at the sport hall, my heart was like so happy tt it felt lyk jumping out although i cant tok to her much as pw is beside her..haiz! y muz she be there? cant she juz bust off n we can tok? after the game, went supper wif jy, vin n ruixiang...she sms mi telling mi tt she feel beri sick, =( straight away my heart feel so pain..wtd to rush toward her n take care of her till she well again..how i wish i could but not tis time coz pw is ard...haiz! dardar..i wan to take care of u forever..can i? i wan u always be healthy n safe..i wan to do alot alot of tings to make u feel lurve n happy... i nv wan my lurve to stop for u even for juz a second..Now all i cld do is to ensure tt i pray n wish tt u get well as soon as possible.. LuRvInG yOu DeEp aNd LoTsA! =..)
LuRvE sHaN!
Monday, May 21, 2007,11:19 PM
Nth much 2day, as normal juz another monday blue for mi again..woke up at 8plus n ist ting came to my mind was her..no doubt she always on my mind where eva i m..drag myself off the cosy bed n brush teeth, change into sport gears n off to lessons..during class, i was like in daze tinking of ytd gg out wif her, yq n mai..kip missing her adorable face, sparkling eyes, beautiful smile etc..n out of sudden my eyes turn watery, i cry le! i din realise till my fren ask mi y my eyes like red red...i reply coz of the aircon too strong bah tt y lydat, i be fine but actually many memories btw mi n her actually flash back in my mind especially there's 1 incident which we went to esplanade on a sat evening n we chatted alot abt the present n future tt we gg to do 2gether stating from gg overseas, eat steamboat, go chalets n etc...all these really make mi cry coz it so difficult to fulfill these goals le...they r juz like a dream tt might or might not came true le..den in the noon while i was coaching, she suddenly sms mi n i was so happy to receive her msg...she told mi she hurt her hand during trg when ppl spike at her while blocking =..( damn it! which tootpid idiot is so brainless to spike so hard at a ger?? dun let mi find out or i will spike hard at his face n make sure his nose bleed like hell!! upon hearing tt, my heart felt a deep pinch..i get beri worry but i cant go to the extreme if not she might not like it...so i hv to tell her to be careful n take gd care herself, if still nv got any sign of recovery maybe i would like bring her go sinseh..i simply lurve her so much! she always my baby no matter wad happen...tml is her ist ite match le, really wish i could go down n gif her my fullest support..peishan, jiayou bah! i'll be ur guardian angel protecting u from harm. I sTiLl lOvInG u...
LuRvE sHaN!
,12:58 AM
Beautiful sunday today..morning wake up go pump petrol den go wash car wif mum b4 gg to jp to do necklace extension for my beloved dardar..i reach phs at abt 2plus n they hv finish the game le, congrat for winning tp 2-0, i guess lucky i din went early to watch or else might hv affect her performance..next match against phs alumni tis cuming sat at 8.45pm..all the best dardar, jiayou bah! u hv my 100% full support..waited for her to do finish scorer den drive her, yq n mai off to imm for dinner...she was always so lovely n pretty as she so tired n slp in my car wif her arm resting on her knee to support her head..kelian de bao bei, c liao oso xin tong le! =( reaches imm le, n she still like blur blur lydat wif yq waking her up coz i cant bear to wake her up from her beauty slp...so cute when she awake! we had dinner abt bagus foodcourt, she order her dinner wif my fav hokkien mee and i greedily took a bite..mi oso offer her sum of my spicy chicken meat coz i noe she like it..after tt, we went off shopping at imm...she was walking 2gether wif yq n mai chatting n playing happily away leaving mi alone behind but i alrite wif it coz seeing her happy make mi happy too..i try to stay walking behind or side by her so tt i can protect her if anyting happen...This time the feeling is kinda diff as i cant do alot tings for her like in the past..i worry she might not like it n so i hv to control myself reminding tt she is my fren...so sad inside my heart but hv to put on a smile at her so tt she wont feel the hurt tt i feel..i found tt she like clothing alot, she came across this purple wedding gown n say tt it would be sumting tt she hope to wear in future when she get married, of coz ist ting in my mind, i wish to tell her..i'm willing to help u put on the gown and we shall walk down together on the red carpet when the time arrive, would u be willing to accept my proposal when time cum?...i really wish to tell her, 'can i buy u sumting tt u like'? coz i really lurve doting her...oniz for her, i willing to do anyting to make her smile n happy, it simply delight mi by getting her surprise..lastly it was late le n so we hv to go hm..Den in the carpark, she suddenly ask mi to piggyback her!! i was shocked but i was really happy coz it remind mi of the gd old times we once hv n i really xin gan qin yuan piggyback her for life..i muz say i really felt great being wif her..hopefully they will be much more outing in future wif her... * sad to say if we r still 2gether, today is our 3rd mth anniversary le* =..( LoVinG u AlWaYs mY dEaReSt BaO bEi!
LuRvEs ShAn!!!
Saturday, May 19, 2007,10:56 PM
Just reach home not long ago, after bathing decide to blog it again..2day went to sqs in the morning to train those sec 1 players and stay back for both her n mine trg...it had been quite sum times i have play vb whole day le..but i wasnt tired at all! quite sad tis noon as i put on a attitude face at her for nt able to dine lunch together...after tt thru out my trg, i kip on playing wif an attitude face on mi..haiz! call her rite after my trg end n run off forgetting abt briefing by lph..haiz! met up her and yq at void deck and tok for quite sum times..somehow after wad she had told mi...i realise that i wasn't tt gd n nice to her in the past..so ashamed of myself! i sincerely like to apologise to u 'Sorry, peishan, i wasn't mean to do tt'! we oso spoken alot of stuff regarding now n future and came to realise that i might nid to prepare for the worst as if in future her mum might still oppose abt us being together and she might chose to gif up mi eventually...although deep in my heart, i nv wan it to happen but i noe reality is cruel..i cant forget u at all and it even hard for mi to accept being ur fren...i noe i hv no control over all these bits n pieces but i really pray hard it wouldnt happen..if 1 day heaven can feel my pain n sorrow n pity on mi n gif mi a 2nd chance, i swear n promise i will be doubly betta than b4..i really do coz u r my 1 n oniz true love in life tt i wanted to cherish it regardless of ur strenght or weakness you possessed.
Friday, May 18, 2007,10:44 AM
Haiz..Tis week was rather slow and busy, i got alot of assignments and project on hand but i just cant get the right mood to start off any 1 of them..she was always on my mind every moment, regardless where i m, i always miss her so much..Bought her a crystal diamond heart shape necklace for her last nite, believing tt it will subsitute mi when i nt by her side to bring her gd luck and safety wherever she goes..so worry abt her whenever she alone as she is always so careless so hopefully my necklace can do my role by protecting her from harm.. she was sick le but she kept it from mi, duno y oso? maybe scare i worry? haiz...finally went to c doc on wed morning, she din tell mi till beri last min if not i sure wont hesitate to rush down to the clinic n pei her..Duno y oso, i enjoy the feeling of doting her, as i dote i feel happy..loves to surprise her wif nice food n presents so went to get her fav food on tues evening b4 picking her up at jp for the scorer job and my own inter-con match against aljunied-hougang, easy game for us but too bad for mi tt i broke my toe nail so manage to struggle play 1 set..next match shall be against pionner csc on 24/5/07 7.30pm at jurong west sport hall again..i wan to win them so can get into top 4 again tis yr, will u gif mi YOUR support? oniz ur words gif mi the encouragement n strength to achieve my target in life..wif out u by my side is simply not a pleasure but a torture to mi every single day..all i could wish n pray for is a word of care..every single word of urs mean alot to mi in my heart, i listen to nobody else but you..tell mi u always lurve mi n i promise i always stand by u no matter wad happen. I dun care how ur parents or relatives tink abt or look at mi but u r oniz 1 tt matters most to mi...even a single smile, kiss or a word of 'dear' will definately rox my day..protecting n taking care of u is all i wanna to do for u...i vow to myself tt i will do my best to be ur guardian angel throughout this period till fate bring us back together.. Loving u deeply madly and truly.
Lovely ShAn!
Tuesday, May 08, 2007,11:38 PM
By writting tis blog rite now, my heart was completely full of pain, sorrow n confused..this is the ist time i experience real heart ache...i do not wish to blame anyone rite now, all i ask for is to return her back to mi..i really nid her! i may be a guy whu look strong n brave on the surface but deep in my heart n soul, i am fragil..i cry days n nites wheneva my memories flash back our happy moments together..the words n dreams we share, everyting! Till today i still cant accept the fact that things could turn so ugly by breaking us apart..i really sincerely love her beri much, my mind was all about her when i open or close my eyes..there was nv 1 time i stop tinking about you..i was true to u all the while..giving u the best i could, put u above myself...i can lose everyting but never should i lose u...but fate play a beri bad joke on mi by taking u away from mi..now till future, my heart will oniz reserve juz for u...no other gers will able to replace ur position in my heart.. i love you, i really love you with all my heart..i be there waiting for you n i noe u too r oso waiting for mi... 我愛你
,11:19 PM
By writting tis blog rite now, my heart was completely full of pain n sorrow..this is the ist time i experience real heart ache...i do not wish to blame anyone rite now, all i ask for is to return her back to mi..i really nid her! i may be a guy whu look strong n brave on the surface but deep in my heart n soul, i am fragil..i cry days n nites wheneva my memories flash back our happy moments together..the words n dreams we share, everyting! Till today i still cant accept the fact that things could turn so ugly by breaking us apart..i really sincerely love her beri much, my mind was all about her when i open or close my eyes..there was nv 1 time i stop tinking about you..i was true to u all the while..giving u the best i could, put u above myself...i can lose everyting but never should i lose u...but fate play a beri bad joke on mi by taking u away from mi..now till future, my heart will oniz reserve juz for u...no other gers will able to replace ur position in my heart.. i love you, i really love you with all my heart..i be there waiting for you n i noe u too r oso waiting for mi...
我愛你
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Shunliang Michael
Mike is 179cm tall and weighs 60kg
Born a Capricorn on 7th January
He has B Blood, which some people believe are found in most intelligent human beings
He believes in Buddishm
He is trying to brush up his English, but is fluent in Teochew & Mandarin
A believer in rest and relaxation, He loves beach-combing and volleyball, not forgetting shopping & movie in the Town
Knowing that singing is what he loves doing; he hops on to KTV wif frens n sing out his heart and soul
A fan of romantic taiwanese drama, he is still very much in love with ‘Xue Tian shi’ & ‘Ji Su Chuan Shuo I & II’
A 100% bubbly & optimistic boi who believes that love comes with chemistry and fades when feelings subsides
An all Asian treat would be fantastic if you are thinking of giving him a feast
His ultimate goal would be – to own an Golf GTI on road
Accolades …
1998*1999- Zonal Colours Awards Recipient nominated for “Outstanding Performance”
1999 - National Colurs Awards Recipient 1999 “Singapore Combined School player ”
2000*2001 -Excellence and Colours Awards 2001 Recipient
2003*2004 - SAFSA Colours and Mens' Team Meritorius Awards 2004 Recipient
His List of Favourites …
Singers : Jay Chou, S.H.E, Akon, Rihanna.
Music Genre : All sorts!
Actors : Jet Li, Jackie Chan, Michelle Yeoh, Jessica Alba.
Food : Anything that is MSG-laden!
Schools: Clementi Town Pri School, Shuqun Sec School, Ngee Ann Polytechnic (Logistic Management)<
Animals : Dogs
Countries : Maldives, Taiwan.
Colours : Yellow, Blue & White.
Sports : Volleyball & Pools
Collection : Vintage clothes, accessories & CDs!
Qualities of her Dream Girl : Honest, Sweet.
Countries of Fantasy : Italy, New York.
Most Unforgettable Experience : Winning the championship in the National Mens Open’ Volleyball Tournament.
Current Desires : Traveling around the world.
Fearful Reaction : Close my eyes and keep quiet.
Anger Reaction : Silence is Golden.
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